{"id":1732,"date":"2013-03-16T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2013-03-15T17:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/35.224.237.165\/index.php\/2019\/02\/25\/am-i-happy-in-this-relationship-or-am-i-just-passing-math\/"},"modified":"2019-02-26T04:58:22","modified_gmt":"2019-02-25T21:58:22","slug":"am-i-happy-in-this-relationship-or-am-i-just-passing-math","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/2013\/03\/16\/am-i-happy-in-this-relationship-or-am-i-just-passing-math\/","title":{"rendered":"Am I Happy in this Relationship or Am I Just Passing Math?"},"content":{"rendered":"

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By Baunnee Martinez<\/a><\/h6>\n
Nov. 12, 2016<\/h6>\n

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The soft, silky sheet. The streaks of gray that flutter across the page. The brush of the red pen on the the top corner of the calculus<\/insert> midterm I turned in only two days ago. It sends chills down my spine knowing I am merely getting by on a C- in college level math. It is a sense of reassurance I\u2019m not used to getting<\/delete>. <\/p>\n

\tDon\u2019t get me wrong, my boyfriend is fantastic <\/insert>, <\/delete>too. He\u2019s nice to talk to and he\u2019s not too<\/delete> bad looking either. <\/insert>We have so much history. <\/insert>He provides me with \u201cemotional support\u201d and a \u201cshoulder to cry on.\u201d And I can do the same for him! I can see us starting a future together. Honestly, I think he may be the one. <\/p>\n

But there\u2019s just something that nags at me whenever I think about the fulfillment I get from that 71% on Chalk next to MATH. It makes me feel like I! AM! LIVING! There is nothing that gives me a break from the<\/delete> deafening anxiety and depression like the fact that I am currently passing one of many core requirements for my major which will eventually provide me with a Bachelor\u2019s degree which I can then leverage to get a job (<\/insert> <\/delete>even though in today\u2019s economy a Bachelor\u2019s has become the equivalent of a high school diploma and I will probably have to continue into post-graduate education to be a truly viable candidate for any career while simultaneously undergoing various internships to satisfy the years-long,<\/insert> real-world experience employers want)<\/insert>.<\/p>\n

So,<\/insert> you can see my dilemma when I say that I\u2019ve got too many good things going for me, and I am really confused as to which one I am truly deriving my happiness from. What if my boyfriend isn\u2019t the one? What if I get married to him and then ten years later, Bachelor\u2019s in hand, I find out I\u2019m not getting the same rush that comes from<\/insert>with<\/delete> being threatened with looming unemployment? Or what if I do leave him and find out the void in my life that I thought was being filled with the satisfaction of academic achievement was actually being<\/delete> occupied with<\/delete>by<\/insert> true love and acceptance? <\/p>\n

There are simply too many factors at work here and my mind is getting very <\/delete>jumbled just thinking about i<\/delete>them<\/insert>t<\/delete>. I think the most mature course of action, at this point in my life, is to simply drop the only relationship I have nurtured over a long period of time as well as my boyfriend. From there, I can figure out who I miss more.<\/p><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

By Baunnee Martinez Nov. 12, 2016 The soft, silky sheet. The streaks of gray that flutter across the page. The brush of the red pen on the the top corner of the calculus midterm I turned in only two days ago. It sends chills down my spine knowing I am merely getting by on a C- in college level math. It is a sense of reassurance I\u2019m not used to getting. Don\u2019t get me wrong, my boyfriend is fantastic , too. He\u2019s nice to talk to and he\u2019s not too bad looking either. We have so much history. He provides me with \u201cemotional support\u201d and a \u201cshoulder to cry on.\u201d And I can do the same for him! I can see us starting a future together. Honestly, I think he may be the one. But there\u2019s just something that nags at me whenever I think about the fulfillment I get from that 71% on Chalk next to MATH. It makes me feel like I! AM! LIVING! There is nothing that gives me a break from the deafening anxiety and depression like the fact that I am currently passing one of many core requirements for my major which will eventually provide me with a Bachelor\u2019s degree which I can then leverage to get a job ( even though in today\u2019s economy a Bachelor\u2019s has become the equivalent of a high school diploma and I will probably have to continue into post-graduate education to be a truly viable candidate for any career while simultaneously undergoing various internships to satisfy the years-long, real-world experience employers want). So, you can see my dilemma when I say that I\u2019ve got too many good things going for me, and I am really confused as to which one I am truly deriving my happiness from. What if my boyfriend isn\u2019t the one? What if I get married to him and then ten years later, Bachelor\u2019s in hand, I find out I\u2019m not getting the same rush that comes fromwith being threatened with looming unemployment? Or what if I do leave him and find out the void in my life that I thought was being filled with the satisfaction of academic achievement was actually being occupied withby true love and acceptance? There are simply too many factors at work here and my mind is getting very jumbled just thinking about ithemt. I think the most mature course of action, at this point in my life, is to simply drop the only relationship I have nurtured over a long period of time as well as my boyfriend. From there, I can figure out who I miss more.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1732","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-komono"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1732","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1732"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1732\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2765,"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1732\/revisions\/2765"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1732"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1732"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chicagoshadydealer.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1732"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}